Well things with me and Nury are still going great then life started to fuck me over. First her laptop died ok thats not so bad. She had these headaches that kept on happening i was worried about them. Then Friday night she got really sick. Then Saturday night i was talking to my dad and she texted me saying she was really sick with a fever going to the hospital this was around 12am then i did not hear anything from her until the next day after she got out of the hospital stupid cell phone policy i really wanted to talk to her so i sent my usual texts to her that night and to try to make her smile. The next day she texted me when she got home told me what she had and says that she still feels really bad and that she misses me. She said she had something called Dengue Fever and i read up on it not only can it be deadly but it after the fever subsides can occur again like a remission like cancer or something sigh i am beside myself. So i still text her throughout the day. Not getting to talk to her much anymore because she is sick and in that much pain. Seems like everyday gets worse and worse for her. Today she told me she has a throat infection and cannot talk and that her eyes hurt and everything hurts. Sigh cosplay family i don't know what to do. I have realized over the course of a year and a half that i really like her i asked her out then boom life threatning illness! She does not deserve this she is a wonderful sweet girl who does nothing but try and help me when i need help with things. Now its my turn and i feel fucking helpless i never felt so helpless in my life. It turns out i am starting to fall for her even still. It sucks i am so worried whats gonna happen to her....I don't want anything to happen to her. I wish i could just leave everything now and use fmla to go to mexico and stay with her until she gets better but i don't have the money for a plane ticket sigh i just want to be by her side but i can't all i can do is have hope and faith that she will be ok. I want her to i want to finally meet the wonderful girl that i have been talking to for almost 2 years. I want to be with her i want to hug her and kiss her and cuddle with her and romance hey. Hell for the first time in years i am praying constantly everyday that she will get better and we will be together. I don't want to lose her. I don't want anything to happen to her. Her birthday is coming up on the 21'st i want her to see the birthday presents i am getting her. On this Sat i am sending her flowers and hopefully soon she will get my letter i sent. Until then i just have to be hopeful and pray for her and send her sweet texts to make her smile and to tell her how much she is appreciated by me. Just whatever happens please God just don't take her from me i am begging you please.....